The longest night-recalling 19 jan 1990

THE LONGEST NIGHT

January 19, 1990.Twenty one years have already passed since that dreadful day which turned into a never ending longest night, when dawn that ends the darkness of the previous night so very naturally,seemed to be a distant dream. When you think of those agonizing and tormenting hours of that night even today, your heart misses a beat and if you do not come out of that nightmarish experience immediately, there is every possibility of going into convulsions that could lead to a catastrophe. Such is the impact and the imprint of that day on our lives that you have to carry those scary and torturous memories with you till you are alive. Chila Kalan was at its worst, it had not snowed for quite some time and the sub zero temperature was sending a chill down your spine. On top of it, there was mounting tension in the air. Selective killings of Kashmiri Pandits had already started and we like eternal fools were still awaiting some miracle to take place that could restore some kind of normalcy. I, unlike other days, came home early around 6 pm. As usual, I parked my car on the main road near the then Kani Kadal Fire Station just across the shop of the milk maid famous for her PANEER and then walked through the 9 serpentine KOCHAS leading to my home situated on the eastern banks of KUTA KOHL, once a roaring tributary of Vitasta.All the houses on our side belonged to Kasjhmiri Pandits with the sole exception of a house whose owner was one Munnawar Sheikh,a well respected trader of Kashmir Arts, and surprisingly the same was true of the other side, but in reverse, where every one was a muslim with the sole exception of a house belonging to Moti Lal Bhan who as a teacher had achieved a celebrity status in his profession.

It will be interesting to recall the days preceding the deadly night of the 19th January and my personal experience of those horrible days. Mohan Chiragi ,(it is so difficult to add prefix ‘late’ to his name) against heavy odds had taken it on himself to bring out the Srinagar edition of leading Urdu national daily newspaper QUAMI AWAZ, already being published from New Delhi, Lucknow and Patna. The paper was an instant success, and its office in the KHIDMAT HOUSE on the bund at Abi Guzar Srinagar was a meeting point for all those who still had the courage to talk differently – against the militancy. A 30 plus strong staff of reporters, correspondents, copyists, Katibs , photographers and those on administrative duty had to be taken care of. And remember, all of them were kashmiri muslims. The staff working late at night was more keen to have me with them and it suited both Chiragi and myself. They were all nice boys, doing their duty as dedicated newsmen, yet you could not rule out the possibility of someone leading them astray, if left alone. And why were the staffers keen that, I stay with them till they close down for the day – usually10-30 or 11 pm – a deathly time those days. I was in fact their insurance. Tahir Mohi-ud-Din (now Editor of very popular Urdu weekly CHATAAN published from Srinagar) was the News Editor and he had to be left at his residence in Natipora. He was so scared of crossing the Ram Bagh bridge, where the security forces would subject anyone at that late hour, and rightly so, to a thorough search, which could mean staying out in the cold for quite some time. It just did not matter that you were a PATARA KAAR, the local journalists had already started calling themselves so. My presence would mean an easy and out of turn hassle free passage. Not only that, Morfat Qadiri son of that legendry journalist Qadiri Saheb had to be dropped at Narsingh Garh, but not before some more staffers had to be dropped en route at TankiPora, Dalhasanyar and Bana Mohalla. The real ‘fun’ would begin at Tankipora-Zaindar Mohalla. Incidentally, I discovered that the Jeep we were travelling in, was displaying HAZA MIN FAZAL-I RUBI in bold letters on its front bonnet, the legend was not there a few days back.Besides, even QUAMI AWAZ was very discreetly obliterated from the front wind screen. Coming back to Zaindar Mohalla. It would be pitch dark by the time we reached there. No street lights , no lights even in the residential houses on either side of the road. Atmosphere so eerie, as if the entire city had been taken over by ghosts and suddenly the head lights of the vehicle would show some creepy movement far ahead of us and the jeep passengers in one voice would say BISAM-I-ALLAH and ALLAH-O-AKBAR and the driver would immediately use the dipper thrice to signal to the now visible crowd , maybe 50 yards ahead of us that we were a friendly lot .We would slow down and the hostile crowd of some twenty to thirty young boys at that unearthly hour surrounded us immediately. You could see two or three of them displaying AK 47 rifles and few having pistols in their hands. SOURAI YASEEN was continuously recited by the staffers and none seemed to be worried about me ,strangely they wanted me to take care of them even when we were confronted by militants. After identifying ourselves as journalists representing KASHMIR TIMES(this was their own paper), they singled me out and wanted me to step out of the jeep. I was absolutely unperturbed and rest of my fellow passengers almost collapsed expecting to see last of me. There was further shock in store for them when they saw and heard me shouting at the leader of this blood thirsty crowd,” Haya Ashqa…………..” He came running towards me trying to hide his AK and responded,” Papa, how are you here(in Kashmiri)…………..”. I knew this Ashqa, a young twenty odd years old, 6 footer with an athletic built from 1984 when he was a member of the youth wing of the Awami National Conference led by Kh. G.M.Shah. He immediately ordered his crowd to get lost and allowed us to go but not before he obliged me by giving a demonstration of their routine nocturnal activities. Within a fraction of a second, the crowd re assembled and as per our agreement , we could restart our journey only when we could not hear them any more. With the engine of the jeep resting, it was silence of the grave yard all around and all of a sudden the silence was broken by the bone chilling chorus singing by the militants led by Ashqa who had started moving in 4 abreast column towards Haba Kadal (for obvious reasons), and what were they singing: JAGO JAGO SUBAH HUYEE, ROOS NE BAAZI HARI HAI, HIND PE LARZA TAARI HAI,AB KASHMIR KI BAARI HAI, JAGO JAGO SUBAH HUYEE. Those who were unlettered and illiterate in the crowd, and they formed the majority, would say:JAGO JAGO SUBAHAN VOUTHI HOUYE ( wake up, wake up; it will be utter chaos in the morning ). And imagine the plight of those of us going through this torture night after night. Nowhere did we ever see a policeman or any other security personnel en route.

And on 19 Jan 1990, Bahadur was home too and so was my brother Ashok. Bahadur lighted the coal BUKHARI and we settled down to a hot cup of tea, exchanging blank glances. My mother, who had lost her vision almost completely in both eyes because her surgery was indefinitely deferred due to turmoil in the valley, was the only one asking questions on current affairs. Clock on the wall showed it was already 7 pm, and it was time to switch on the TV for news. The telephone started ringing, it was my sister from Narsing Garh,” Papa, can you hear something…………….?” She was quite nervous and scared. I could hear some sloganeering in the distance through my receiver, but could not make out what it was all about. It was scary though. I tried to reassure my sister and wanted her to give more details. All that she could say was that huge crowds seem to be coming from Chhatabal area towards Karan Nagar and they were raising anti India, pro Pak slogans. The cause of concern was, they were raising anti-Batta slogans too. She wanted to confirm if such slogans were raised elsewhere too. She was sure that her time was up and she bid me a tearful god bye. I was at my horn’s end, I really did not know what to do. I again rang her up and she let me hear the loud and clear slogans raised apparently by huge crowds that were zeroing in, and I asked her to keep calm and not to lose hope. I once again assured her that all would be well within a few hours, but who could guarantee a few hours of safety ? Our side was still Ok, but then a call came from Bana Mohalla, they too repeated the same and worse, they had seen people coming out on roads , huddled up in groups sort of conspiring. And then it was the same all over the city. It seemed the city had been taken over by JKLF, the only terrorist outfit operating then. It was 9pm and we saw hordes of muslims coming out on Guru Bazar bund on the other side of Kutta Kohl and they were not raising any slogans, but their whispering was reaching us loud and clear. There was total black out on our side. All KP households had put their lights out and all the family members virtually huddled up in a single room with no lights on. Just on the other side of this once mighty rivulet,which was now reduced to a drain and one could walk across it on foot in less than five minutes, we saw some people, not more than five or ten moving in that minus 5 degrees C temperature, pointing towards our house. We could distinctly hear them,” Look, they are enjoying the warmth of the BUKHARI………but for how long?” Both my brother and myself and Bahadur too failed to make out who they were. It semed we were still out of the harm’s way. But suddenly the situation took a turn for the worse. One of my telephones no: 3223 got disconnected but the other no: 5273 coming from the muslim side was, thankfully in working order. Hundreds of muslims came out of their homes, braving the freezing cold started raising threatening slogans not only at a hearing distance but also at a hand shaking distance .Time now was 11pm. Now onwards it semed the time too froze. I started receiving desperate calls, now from Bansi Parimo, a little tater from Rageshwari ,both from Sanat Nagar, and then from Wanabal and Rawalpora. End seemed a few minutes away and help was coming from nowhere. I called up who’s who of JK Police, some did not pick up the phone and others sheepishly expressed their inability and helplessness to provide any relief. I called Mohan Chiragi in Delhi and got all the nos: of those who mattered. One of them was the then Home Secretary, one Shiromani Sharma, He was sort of disturbed by my call and was shockingly surprised to hear that the situation was that bad. He confessed that nobody had informed him about this looming tragedy. He promised help. I did not stop there. I traced Mufti Mohd Syed in Mumbai,where he was addressing a public meeting, and got in touch with him. It took me a lifetime to reach him, it was just past midnight and he advised me not to panic, help was on way. I repeatedly called some of my Muslim friends and soon discovered that it was a futile exercise. It was one muslim lady of Rawalpora, who sounded as worried and tense as we were and that was a big consolation . In the meantime, our immediate neighbors with whom we shared a common wall, stealthily walked into our ground floor sitting room to feel little more at ease .My calls to army did not mature and the blood thirsty , hostile crowd seemed to be knocking at our doors. Death was imminent. Something had to be done and done very quickly. My brother and myself chalked out a plan. Plan to die heroically. There was one satisfaction: Anoo and Chandan were safe in Delhi. We had seen them off alongwith photo journalist Mushtaq at Srinagar airport only a few days earlier. Everybody in the neighborhood was convinced that we had lots of weapons in our home, though the truth is that my brother had just one double barrel licensed gun at home. We had a box full of cartridges too. Frontal attack would come from across the Kotta Kohl, they could come in hordes and we decided to shot as many rounds as possible ,killing or injuring all in the line of fire. In the meantime, we prepared the womenfolk to lay down their lives by self immolation. A can full of kerosene oil was kept handy. It goes to the credit of my mother and her age old friend Rupavati to volunteer for this kind of death . Even Bahadur’s wife and her two young kids prepared themselves for the ultimate sacrifice. One last attempt, I called an army no: in Udhampur and was assured by an officer of the rank of a major that a column of soldiers was kept ready and it would move out from Badami Bagh Cantt. soon. How soon, SOON would be, was a million dollar question. The night seemed unending. It was 3am. I called the muslim lady in Rawalpora once again. She sounded a little relaxed and I was re assured. I connected the movement of the army column with her near positive response. The army would obviously reach Rawalpora first through the bye-pass, but my calculations were ill founded. She clarified that since their neighbor, a senior politician and an ex minister too had joined the militant processionists ,and advised her husband to follow suit and her husband had willingly obliged him by joining the anti Indian processionists some of whom were armed to the teeth . They were convinced that AZADI was only a few feet away and they could ill afford not to be part of this victorious team .Incidentally both these gentlemen are living today, while one of them retired as a chief justice of a State high court, the other rose to be a cabinet minister once again.

The last to call around this time was Inderji from Ishbar, the hostile crowds had come out on roads even at this late hour, to ensure that they are not denied the share of Azadi, now round the corner. One thing was evident, Bhattas (kashmiri Pandits) all across the city of Srinagar were waiting with baited breath for the eventuality – death at the hands of their one time neighbors who were prowling the streets raising venomous anti Bhatta slogans . There was no news from rest of the Valley.The time shown by the grand- father clock on the wall was just past 4am, but that hardly made any difference, the menacing crowd just a few meters away from our doors was more restive than an hour earlier, even when the temperature had dipped to around minus 7degrees Celsius. You just heard the battle cry of ALI ALI and the women folk started chanting SHIV SHAIV SHAMBU and we loaded the gun. End seemed a second away. Nothing happened . Ashok looked at me and we concluded that the marauding crowds were probably waiting for a signal to attack the Pandits simultaneously all over the city, or else why should they have not attacked us after raising that battle cry.. After all it would not take more than a million strong agitating blood thirsty mobs parading the city streets for almost nine hours to decimate the already almost frozen to death Kashmiri Pandit community in a jiffy. Another call to that major in Udhampur, this time he gave me a telephone no: of some other officer in Badami Bagh cantt. I called him and to my surprise, he responded immediately assuring me that the column was ready and they were awaiting the orders from the civil authority. “Where is the civil authority” I retorted, but alas! He had disconnected the line. Waiting for the inevitable, the deathly silence was broken by the howling of stray dogs and my mother was the first to hear BAANG from a distant mosque and she jumped,” tala, gash ha aao……” (look, it is dawn). We removed a part of the curtain hesitatingly and could see the silhouette of huge crowds, now unbelievably silent, disappearing into narrow lanes and within a few minutes with better visibility, we could hardly see anybody on the bund. Was it a jumbo repreive ?

Our house was the target, we learnt later, but was not attacked for fear of heavy reprisals. After all, they were convinced that our house was actually an ammunition dump and we could take then hell out of the ill armed hordes even if they were large in numbers. But why did they not annihilate the rest of us? Who and what saved us that day? And look at our naivete, most of us continued to live there after surviving that nightmare.

The author of this article is MR.shiben kishen tikoo…

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9 Comments

  1. sachin mattoo
    Posted January 27, 2011 at 3:32 pm | Permalink | Reply

    very well written article.The author has presented his own experiences in a unbiased way.some forgotten facts about those anarchial times have been presented adriotly.Jan 19, 1990 is a black spot on the history of Kashmir and this black spot can only be cleaned by giving Kashmiri Pandits their legitimite right to live in the land of their ancestors as they used to be before dec1989….

  2. arihant
    Posted January 28, 2011 at 1:55 pm | Permalink | Reply

    The exodus of pandits points a finger towards the decandent political system of India.Even after 63 years India has not made any major breakthrough in Kashmir problem.The chief minister,home minister and prime minister of that time 1989-1990 are directly responsible for the culpable homicide of minorities of Kashmir valley and a legal action should be taken against them.The mass exodus based on religious discrimination can be best seen in this case.In case of other roits like Gujrat, the minorities came back to their respectives homes after some time, but not in case of Kashmir.

  3. Vikas Bhat
    Posted May 30, 2011 at 10:23 pm | Permalink | Reply

    Dear Bhatta Brother,every kashmiri pandit have seen days like this.
    i consider every kashmiri pandit to be HERO and BRAVE who survived all the persecution from 11 century and made their way to live with dignity and pride.
    i was 12 yrs old when we left kashmir in 1990 and always think how much painfull would it be to see thousands of muslims neighbours taking a procession ,muslim militants had making plans of our killing,abduction of woman.
    our sheepish govt ????

    My opinion about return to kashmir is ,we should struggle for HOME LAND no less than that.we are more than 30 lac kashmiri pandits who have migrated from 1947.

    JAI PANUN KASHMIR
    My

  4. raj
    Posted August 22, 2011 at 2:00 pm | Permalink | Reply

    Where is the Kashmir of Folklore?
    I have just returned back from my 6 days trip to Kashmir. Though we had many pleasant memories to cherish for a long time but the state of affairs in Kashmir has made me weep for this beautiful state of India. The Kashmir of today is so different from the Kashmir I saw about 30 years back. I wonder where the Kashmir of Folklore has disappeared. Where is the art of Ladishah through which the Kashmiri people expressed their problems and resentment by singing and dancing? Have the people of Kashmir forgotten the folklore of Nagrai and Heemal where Heemal (whose mind was poisoned by her jealous neighbour) to test her husband lost him inch by inch when he forever sank into the vat of milk? It is claimed that peace has returned to Kashmir, but I observed a lot of frustration and anger in many disgruntled Kashmiris. The warmth I had experienced about three decades back was absent. I have analyzed three main reasons behind it; treating all non-Kahmiris as foreigners, corruption and Pakistan’s brain washing. At the surface everything looked calm but scratch a little and you will find that those disgruntled Kashmiris are seething with rage. It is just a temporary truce of convenience. Disgruntled Kashmiris are over involved in self pity and would cry foul even on non-issues and sadly they have the maximum say in the society. They will not hesitate to be violent even on trivial day to day problems. Unfortunately, army is spread everywhere and that is the only language most of those Kashmiris now understand. If Army is withdrawn and those brainwashed disgruntled are left alone to decide their fate, separatists would succeed and Pakistan would pounce upon this opportunity and would be the first to occupy Kashmir as it has invested hugely in it. The so called Azad Kashmir or POK has similar people, art and natural wealth. They have miserably failed and are now mostly poverty stricken and have no say of their own. POK has been sold to China similar would be the fate of our Kashmir. A lot of rubbish has been stuffed into the innocent Kashmiri minds. If that garbage is not replaced by right education, nothing can stop the beautiful Kashmir from the path of self destruction. Is this bloodshed worth it? Is the so called azadi which the disgruntled Kashmiris seek really a freedom or are they weaving a fool’s paradise, a dystopia around themselves? It will be wise for the people of Kahsmir to understand that India is the biggest democracy in the world and it is becoming a world power. It will be in the interest of Kashmiri people to be part of the Indian success story. Infact, the Kashmiri people should persuade their brothers on the other side of the LOC and LAC i.e. the POK and Aksai Chin to raise their voice against suppression and deceit played by Pakistan and China on them. The need of the hour for the people of Kashmir is to reassess the situation, change their focus from self destruction and replace it with the vision of how to get back the ‘POK’ and ‘Aksai Chin’. The solution for Kashmir lies not in harping about the pains of past but to have a clear vision of future. For Kashmiri people, the détente to the issue of Kashmir is ‘self realization’ and not ‘self determination’.
    Rajinder Ahluwalia Advocate

  5. Manish
    Posted January 19, 2012 at 5:44 pm | Permalink | Reply

    Nice write up.KP’s exodus is a classical case of unnoticed Human rights violation.Whenever situation demanded,Every govt. either at either level have raised this issue tactfully for their own interests,and later dumped it.This cyclic process has entered today in its 23rd year.I emphathasise with exiled Kashmiri pandits.

  6. Bhardwaj
    Posted February 24, 2012 at 11:08 pm | Permalink | Reply

    I salute u.. U and every kashmiri pandit is a hero.. U all deserve respect and u all have gone through a lot.. I wish u all get ur homes back and u get back to ur homeland .. u are given your rights there.. And I m sure this will happen.. May be now I dont know how.. But I am sure this will happen.. Kashmir will again be a valley of kashmiri pandits and u will be able to breath freely…

  7. Partik KUMAR
    Posted January 19, 2013 at 7:21 pm | Permalink | Reply

    सेक्युलर गधो को सिर्फ गुजरात के दंगे दीखते है जो की गोधरा कांड का जवाब थे|
    मगर उन नीच लोगो को कश्मीरी पंडित, असम के हिन्दू और 84 के सिख नही दिखाई देते क्या??
    सरकार एहनी नीच लोगो के कर्ण हिन्दुओ पे जुल्म करती है|

  8. Hardik Sharma
    Posted January 19, 2016 at 8:59 pm | Permalink | Reply

    21 years and We still Haven’t learnt from our mistakes….
    We feel proud and honoured of our Culture but miss the utter reality…of the whole propaganda. I am 18 years old never came to know about the whole scenario that took place 21 years ago, It was today my uncle told me about the worst nightmare they suffered .
    A big failure of our so called political system….63 years since independence no actions no reliefs till now. 19/01/90 a big violation of Human Rights…KP’s are raised as an Issue only when our tactful, miser politicians look for votes. A pure display of carnage,mass execution and genocide. And we still are stuck onto the ladder of “Intolerance”.

  9. The Indian
    Posted January 30, 2016 at 11:46 am | Permalink | Reply

    If Ashok pandit wants then these Indian may be help the whole kashmiri pandit only if you! Wants

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